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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 03:49

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

And i lived it daily.

So whats the point in blame.

Put me off passion for life!!

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She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

But it wasn’t much.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Do very hot men ever feel attracted to an ugly woman? Why?

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

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As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Why cant I feel anything in my sleep? I cannot even feel myself moving, breathing, and swallowing saliva! I cannot even hear anything, not even my alarm! Some people that I've been with says that I'm moving a lot in my sleep, how can I stop it?

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

If there is an abandoned house with no owner, can I live in it?

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

She was in good health!

Why are daughters mean to their mothers?

My life is so biszare .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

We all went to grammer schools

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At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She loved him until the end.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I caught my neighbor leaving his 12-year-old son home alone and he has not come back in 6 hours. Should I call CPS?

I think the readers, may guess!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

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I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I said to her

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I write beautiful poetry .

I could never make a relationship work though!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Especially a lifetime of it.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Comes on , in middle age.

I waited trembling.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I never cut or harmed myself..

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

One cannot live in the past .

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I will be 64.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

All the time i was locked up.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Why did i forgive my father ?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

So, i spoilt her more .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Was to survive, this bastard.

I have no regrets .

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He resisted the act ,that day.

I was scared of men, in general

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I couldn’t, believe it.

My family never makes their pension either.

I was 9 years of age.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

This is soul school!.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Ive learnt so much.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

She found it foreign!.

Would this be the day?

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I was seconnd youngest,

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She wouldn,t have been !

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I don,t even have a pension.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Who then, do I blame.?

The only rule us 5 kids had .

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

She married twice! .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I was very sick at this time too.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

What did i know ?

My mum and dad in the seventies!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

When she asked me how she looked .

We were not on the streets..

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

It was going to be , some day.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

(And it was in our own minds.)

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

But, we were locked up after school.

Im still living with it.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He knew the spot.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.